Sunday, September 25, 2005

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 18:15:38 GMT

new xanga.
not sure if i'll keep it forever.
i may go back to this one.

subscribe.
comment.
all that shit.

danceinsheets
danceinsheets
danceinsheets

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 20:21:41 GMT

"I'm gonna make you feel fucking complete"
one of mine & his songs. hah.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 22:46:50 GMT

oh, you know.

-ps. look at my dancing turtle.
nick sent it to me:]

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 23:43:19 GMT

As of now, you know everything about me that you need to know.

I have nothing more to say.

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 19:33:02 GMT

i wish i had over 600 friends on myspace.
i do not want to sink to the level of 'whoring' though.

i hate xanga.
i'll comment you back later.

www.myspace.com/chemicalfires

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Sat, 17 Sep 2005 18:03:15 GMT

No one talks to me on here anymore.
No one looks at this anymore.
No one talks to me on myspace either.

I think I'm losing my cool.
Oh well?

Friday, September 16, 2005

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 02:48:20 GMT

I think I'm bipolar.

Oh, & I'm being totally serious.

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 10:56:43 GMT

Nobody cares that Britney Spears had her baby.
She's gross.

I might get a new camera.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 20:27:30 GMT

I just broke my camera.

I'm going to cry..

Monday, September 12, 2005

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 03:46:27 GMT

I'm going to write a long post.
From the bottom of my heart.
& It's going to get everything out.
If it pisses you off, I'm not sorry.
If you don't read this post, you're an asshole & probably shouldn't comment me.

First:
I have never felt something so amazing in my life. I am honestly, totally & completely in love with nick. That boy is the most amazing person ever. There is not one person in this world that can even begin to compare to him. My feelings for him grow stronger & stronger each day. I don't think you have any idea. We're in love. I honestly don't think I could ever love someone as much as I love him, ever.

Second:
To a certain someone. Please don't be upset about anything between Nick & I. You're an amazing kid, you really really are. & I mean that from the bottom of my heart. I do have feelings for you, I just, I don't know. This whole thing is so confusing. To be honest, I don't want to mess things up with Nick. I could never hurt him & he could never hurt me. I don't want to lose him, & I'm worried If I take things any further with you..I'll lose Nick. & That would kill me. Thank you for that amazing night. I really won't ever forget it.

Third:
I'm sick of people making a big deal about this scene bullshit. I give up on it. Go ahead & call me a scene kid, see if I care. Shut the fuck up, & get over yourself. Honestly, people are being overdramatic about the whole thing. Everyone is part of some kind of scene. Whether it be the hardcore scene, punk scene, ska scene. Whatever. The fake pearls, bright colored makeup, 'scene' haircuts, they'll all be forgotten about by next year. Don't fucking yell at me for judging people. We all do it. It's unavoidable. Do not fucking tell me I don't give people a chance. I am nice to anyone who's nice to me. If you bitch at me, I will fucking bitch back. I really don't have a problem with most 'scene' kids. The only ones that piss me off are the ones that are elitist assholes that think they're hotter than everyone else. I hate the ones that just stand there at the back of a crowd during a show & act like they don't really care about the music that's being played. I fucking hate the bitches that are in it just for the fashion. You may as well go kill yourself now, because you're fucking worthless anyway. I also can't stand it when people talk about it non-stop. 'scene this, scene that' FYI, nobody fucking cares. & Don't try & tell me that you're always joking about it when you talk about it, everyone knows you're not.

Fourth:
I have changed. I am completely aware of that fact. & Although some of you may think it's for the worst, I think it's for the better. I feel so much better about myself. I don't care what other people think about me anymore. I'm way more open to talking to people that I don't really know. I feel more comfortable with myself. I'll express my opinions whether you like it or not. I'm a much more open person. If you're doing something that is pissing me off, I'll tell you. I've decided life is too short to not speak your mind. Fucking, go out & live life to the fullest. Don't keep people in your life that just bring you down, they're only stopping you from being happy. I'm happy with my long distance relationship. I don't need anyone else anymore. I'm so happy. I mean, we all have our days where we get down, but for the most part, I'm in an amazing mood all the time. & I love it. I love the way I am right now. I love my state of mind. Whether you agree with me or not, this is how I am. Get used to it.

Yeah, I'm an asshole.
You don't have to tell me twice.

I'll probably add to this later.

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